Friday, February 10, 2012

New Path

(From another site)

I had completely forgotten I had this blog. I'm still not certain I can make a go of it, but it's worth a try. Here's why: My first blog explains a little of what is no more. I still have my iPod. I use it for drumming actually, because it has tracks on it I am learning. So that much hasn't changed. What has changed, as of last October, was my bosses viewpoint and hence my job.
 
What would you say about an employee who had work that didn't need redoing? One that was a positive image in the community and hence his employer because he was a volunteer firefighter/EMT, that even responded to two calls directly in front of the office? A worker bee that brought in a job that was over a half million dollars, the one who knows what the bosses standards are, and had been with the company for 8 years? One that put in over 8 hours a day that were never reflected on the time card? If you're my boss, you'd say that employee is too costly to keep around. Because all of the above is what I brought to the table. When I was hired, I got 3 sick days, and after 5 years, three weeks of vacation. Health insurance was and still is a given. After the downturn in 2008, we lost a day of sick pay. No announcement, no anything. I was in fact the one that told the crew members what had happened, because I noticed it on my check stub. There was some surprise to this, as we are a small crew of eight, so the gross effect for the boss was in the neighborhood of $1600.  Hardly seemed worth it. Had there been a note, or announcement of some kind, we might have reacted differently. Then the new guys came on board, as some projects were deeming a few extra bodies. And lo and behold, no more three week vacations. Two was the new limit. Hmm, said I. The boss is cutting employee benefits. He's getting guys who will provide all their own tools, work for fewer benefits, and less per hour. And then he got himself into that spiral of needing a job done before another permit kicked in, and the layoffs started. Well, THE layoff. The highest cost had to go, even before new guys who had all the tools and no insurance yet.

I guess I was too slow. He claimed my work needed to be re-done, so I checked with the supervisors which work I had ostensibly done, and as it turned out, except for 1 job of the 4 mentioned to me dating back several years, which was still questionable, none of the work in question was mine. Indeed, one of those jobs was my work at dismantling a window trim operation that was done poorly and re-doing it correctly. Maybe my boss didn’t like being corrected.

Water under the bridge now, so where does that leave me? Still "unemployed" officially, but I am in that position of being in new territory career wise. I'm still incredibly active in volunteer activities that affect our community. One of those activities might actually turn into my next career. Because of a Christmas day incidentthis was born. And I am a Co-Director of this nonprofit which we aspire to make a national reality. I have never done anything like this, but why not? I get to serve people. It's something I believe in. And, I actually am a paid writer now. How cool is that? In fact, I get paid to listen to the blues, and then write reviews.  I mean, c'mon. Can it get any better? Maybe if it was full time, yea, But considering I had no experience doing this, I'm willing to just get my feet in the door and start small.

So I'm wondering how many of us are in these new territories? Pondering if maybe pursuing our passion might actually be where we need to be? That it can pay off. Apparently Salon found themselves there. After becoming an aggregator news source, they shifted gears. A daring step in news world these days. Gannet is looking to shed 665 of 785 people in the news division. Salon decided to produce less, but more original news. Increased traffic numbers says it was the right choice. I am in that new territory, as I wrap my head around doing new things now, and not identifying myself by what I did for over two decades. It isn't paying all the bills yet, but that means I just need to keep working at it. Madison, the Arab Spring, and Occupy indicate to us that a consciousness shift is awakening the world over. Business as usual no longer works. In some ways, I got pushed into it by being laid off. Or maybe I attracted it. Either way, here I am. Where are you? Where would you like to be? If we don't want to be part of business as usual anymore, let's face those fears that prevent us from looking forward, moving in that direction where the future is completely unknown, into the vast uncharted universe of our lives. Because the freedom it allows is that we can make up our lives any way we want, individually and collectively. As we know, any journey begins with a simple first step.

Shall we walk?

Sunday, January 22, 2012

A Busy Body

I'm busy alright. Now to make some of it pay off! Here's what I'm involved in, which is partly due to the fact I am unemployed.
I belong to 4 committees or boards. One is the Langley Library Board. That's a quarterly meeting, mostly responsible for the building which the city owns. Not a tough row to hoe being on this board. I am also on the South Whidbey Fire/EMS Safety Committee. Another easy row to hoe for the most part, and also quarterly. I do however have more activity with that fire district than the library. During times of unemployment, I put in more duty shifts for example, and as I am at this very moment. The third committee I belong to is the Langley Emergency Planning Committee. We are reviewing and/or establishing the Emergency Plan for the city, which is tougher to do with the budget cuts that have affected many counties and cities over the last several years. The fourth board I belong to is the Board of Directors for the Whidbey Community Federal Credit Union. We are in the process of obtaining the charter and opening the doors for this credit union, which we suspect will happen near the last quarter of 2012. This board meets monthly, and lots of conversations in between. Right now we are studying by-laws so we can set those for the credit union. Then we will move to policies. 

I am also learning new things. I do have one job opportunity as a local reporter, so relative to that I am taking journalism courses from Poynter's NewsU. I do have another part time writing job for the American Blues Scene, and hopefully by extension, the NorthWest Music scene. So in those veins I am studying interviewing and reviews, as well as getting myself used to be in a whole new industry with a new vernacular. I am currently taking FEMA classes through their Emergency Management Institute, out of Emmitsburg, Maryland. And I am dipping into the MIT well of available courses. A lot of this variation has to do with the fact I am getting fairly certain my boss has no plans on bringing me back. My age means I'm not as fast at he twenty year olds. I also don't supply all my own tools like many of them do. So when my boss can get people to work for less, supply all their own tools, get less in benefits than what I was getting, I am no longer viewed as an asset. Never mind my good will and service to the community as a firefighter and EMT and other activities. Never mind the over a half million dollar job I brought in. I am viewed merely as a cost. And it isn't like construction is a hopping industry. Even here on the island, which is fairly high end, I am in a growing community of workless carpenters. So maybe it's time to move into something else.

Last, but by no means least, I am investigating what it takes to run a nonprofit corporation. There is an opportunity to take something developed here on Whidbey Island, and make it a national service organization. So if it all works out, meaning we promote and build it locally first, and research supports expanding the idea, and we get the incorporation, then i will become the national director of this organization, which will become my paying job.

The real issue I am running into is generating an income flow, managing all these other activities, and still getting my drum lessons and practice time in. Seems like it's time to create a rather full calendar.

Thursday, December 29, 2011

The World Turns.

Yes, Christmas Eve was fun. The whole family together, laughing, eating, goofing off. A night of a dinner, and a couple early gifts: The camera that took the pictures. The new French press to make coffee with. And plans to gather Christmas morning to open gifts before my son and his sweetie headed off to the other side of the family.

In the midst of our Christmas day joviality, my pager went off, and the reality of my life as an emergency responder interrupted. The wind had been blowing here, and a tree top snapped off and fell on a traveling vehicle, injuring one of the children. I was out the door. My wife Jody knew right then and there that if this call was a bad one, how I would be affected, and told the kids. Unfortunately it was.

I am lying in bed the day after Christmas, computer on lap. The distractions I wanted, some wine last night, television, surfing the net, the drums, reading; nothing is making the tears stop or the pain go away. It's not just the image of a child getting CPR. It's going deeper than that for me. It's the cascading effect of being out of work, no solid prospects of any yet, no health insurance, my wife and our son being rear ended on the mainland, that car being partially unusable now, and then going to a call to help what turned out to be people I know. People who lost a daughter. The father with a broken neck. Their lives are altered far more than mine.

Part of it is the helpless feeling. Yes, I can treat the mother, as I did. I can help the oldest daughter retain some semblance of sanity, as I did. But it's the incredibly helpless feeling of knowing that a hurt child is not doing well, having a mother ask how her daughter is, wanting to be with her, and I have no words to speak other than to ask this woman to focus on herself for now.

Having pieced together the need for CPR and a falling tree, a responder knows there is a head injury that had immediate traumatic effects. The odds aren't good. Nobody called for air lift, or put it on standby, that I heard, because the ambulance never moved. They were still trying to get a heart rate. Really not good. All this info is on my mind while I move between mom and dad, trying to assure them, to help them in any way I can.

Finally the ambulances all leave for the hospital. The family will stay together, despite the upcoming final news. I finally put my head down on the hood of the chief's truck and begin to cry.

My day turned when the wind began to blow. Actually before that. The tree had some weakness, and when that weakness started, my day was altered. That weakness grew until Christmas, 2011, until that day, when just minutes before, my friends and their children got into their vehicle to go spend Christmas with their relatives on the mainland. They likely never saw the tree break, or heard it. Suddenly, it crashed into their lives, not out of malice, but as a necessary response of nature to the strong but not really bad wind that day. We've had worse. At that moment their day turned, and someone called 911.

Then my day turned. The lives of my family turned, and that of our community. The ripples will roll out for a while. As I sit here crying, typing these words, depressed, shut in, eating stale popcorn for breakfast because I can't motivate for anything else right now, I know this won't last. I will heal, and the community will heal. This couple and their family perhaps slower. Losing a child and sibling cannot be easy. None of us ever saw the moment that culminated in that tree breaking, and yet because of the interdependence of things, on Christmas Day, 2011, our lives were woven traumatically together.

I certainly can't blame the tree, or the victims. There isn't anywhere to put it, and realistically, no reason to blame. I just need to feel the pain and anger, cry the tears, and get on with helping this family recover from their more immediate experience. This is the stuff of life. As a responder, I get to see the ugly side of it. I think that's the lesson. When my pager goes off, I get to be intimately connected with the ugly suffering of others. I get to help, and indirectly so does my family. We are all in this together: the wind, the tree, the patients, the responders, the community, all of us. Knowing our community they way I do, I think we will successfully navigate this turn in our world.

Thursday, December 08, 2011

A Brief History of Our Christmas Trees

Last night we celebrated Jody's birthday by putting up the Christmas Tree. It's an annual event, an event she cherishes. Miles, Claire, and Taylor came over. Jode and I had spent the afternoon cleaning and re-arranging so we could make room for the tree, even though this years is smaller than recent trees. Which partly meant that some of the ornaments didn't make it to display this year. Oh well. And I see this morning one of them was batted off by the cats, and another completely shredded. 

The first hiccup was the lights. Jody had some strings of the older style bulbs, meaning bigger, not the little pencil point style. And every time she plugged one in, the fuse would blow. So off to the store to score some LEDs. And then another store, while the rest of us watched Family Guy and Simpsons. Eventually she came back, the lights went on, and the decorating started, among the chuckles, a little beer, and delicious cupcakes Claire had baked that we turned into a version of Suzy Qs. Claire's cupcakes are to die for. Especially the Chocolate/Peanut Butter. 

And then it was done. At least for the most part. The four of us just hung stuff where there was an empty place on the tree. Jody however will now spend the next couple weeks tweaking this arrangement. She has favorites, so she might move them to the front of the tree from where I might have hung it. And as the tree fills more of her vision and imagination, she'll balance it so to speak. Me? I sit back at the end of the night, and marvel at this occasion. There are papers, metal, glass, ceramic, feathers, ribbons, all congregated together in various shapes and colors, and while I bask in this visionary delight, the smell of the tree wafts over me as it warms up and falls open.

Jode finally sat down to check her e-mail, and opened the computer to find a birthday card. We never did crack open the bubbly which I had bought her. I suppose maybe Christmas day. Or not. She relaxes in the glow of the tree to answer Facebook birthday blessings from her friends, while I go to bed. I like this part of year, as her birthday really melds together a time where we spend more time together as a family, as human beings celebrating the turning of the time and by honoring one another by giving gifts. In our house it starts on the 7th, when the tree goes up, a new display of colors, sounds, and fragrances fill the air at our house.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

More Bard!

Another season of acting has begun for Island Shakespeare Fest here on Whidbey Island. This year we are doing The Tragedy of Romeo and Juliet. It is going quite well. So let me share with you three particular reasons this has become my only acting venue.

First, acting is time consuming. And I do have other interests. I began drum lessons the other day with a local teacher here whom I met because I helped build his studio. We closed our lesson with a drum jam, which I have never done before, and it was very cool. So I have new directions there. I also am studying Emergency Management through FEMA, and I need to finish those courses and then move on to enrolling in a history program. Right now the one at Arizona State is top contender. All this dove tails together in new opportunities and post-retirement age occupations. I also have aspirations in my meditation practices, which happen to have a higher priority. And most of this couldn't happen if I dove into acting. That sort of activity sucks up all time, it is a siren call. And non-paying. Let alone getting back to firefighter/EMT duties. So it's a matter of keeping it in balance.

Second, I like the vision of our director. Well, she's actually more than just that for now, but she has ideas for our company, and that is for us to be recognized as a professional company. What that means is two fold. One, we get paid. Now, given that our shows are free, that might seems a tad difficult. But getting paid to do a show, regardless of how much, carries with it certain expectations. She knows it won't be a sole source of income for us. But the expectation is that we present a quality show, which is the other fold. To me being a professional is about the quality of work I present. It's true in my occupation as well. I should be able to demonstrate that I can meet quality standards, a knowledge of the use and care of tools, and an organization of my work so that I can meet a dead line if need be. And in acting it's no different. So if I put it all together, the props and voice and story and emotion and blocking,  by opening date, and she can put beer or gas money, (or in my case a bottle of Irish Cream), in my hand, then I ands we can claim to be professional actors. There are other aspects to what it means to move towards recognition of being a top notch company, but I'll post them as they happen.

Which brings me to my third reason for confining myself to Bard acting. It's the process of this director that I have never experienced before last year. When you have a professional level director that knows how to bring out the professional level in the actors, it's worth the time investment. It has developed a camaraderie that carries over into the year, a level of intimacy that is binding, and particularly important when on-stage one needs to be trying to kill your comrade! Another part of this process is what she emphasizes from the first day of each season: "Why these words?" Shakespeare is a grand story writer, and we tell that story in the English he wrote. Which includes a syntax and words uncommon to current ears. And if we don't know what the man was saying, then neither (neye-ther) will the audience. And one comment we got consistently last year during our performance of As You Like It, is that we made Shakespeare understandable. Quite a compliment for a first year company! Quite the achievement for our director as well.

This years performance is all the more enjoyable as I have almost my entire family involved. Taylor was in as Abraham, but had to bow out. Miles is "Romeo's man" Balthazar. Jody is working on the costumes, and I am Escalus, Prince of Verona. This year we have a longer run than last year (a sell-out if you will. Our top show had 300 attendees, our in-the-rain show had 80, and we topped over 1000 for our five shows.), and next year we do two plays in repertory. The baby steps are adding up. So maybe when I retire I can have a host of part time gigs, teaching history, playing the drums, Emergency Management writing and consulting, and once a year acting Shakespeare.

Sunday, February 06, 2011

All In, the Family

"Rebellious subjects. Enemies to peace..." So begins the lines of the Prince of Verona (aka PoV, or Prince E) in the Tragedy of Romeo and Juliet. And we are all in.

Taylor is playing Balthazzar, Miles I recall is playing Abram, Jode will help with costumes, and I'm PoV. Actually, it's a split part, so you'll have to come and see it to see how it works out. Prince and Princess in some regards. Sam Cass and I in the role. So yesterday I started memorizing the lines, although rehearsal is months away. I'm looking forward to the exercises that the director puts us through before rehearsals. It's a great bonding time with the stage, our space, and mostly each other. I'm so excited about this!

Read any good books lately? I have. Just finished Simon Winchester's book about the earthquake in San Francisco in 1906, titled A Crack In The Edge Of The World. It's a brief geology education meshed with history of when geology and San Francisco met. Very well done. I liken Winchester to Bryson, except not as funny. They both do marvelous jobs of weaving together what seem like disparate strands of thought into a picture that both entertains and educates. Bryson just has more humor to add to it, and when I saw Bryson in Seattle last year, he sounds just like he writes. I wondered if Bryson morphed into the way he writes. I'm also reading Jefferson's writings, at least the Library of America's collection of them. He's got some rather forward looking ideas. I also notice that some issues, like global commercial trade, is rather old. And the protection of said industries from other countries, through tariffs and duties and regulations. The more things change....

Taylor is still gardening, and I really like the work he does. I spent a day working with him last year, in the rain. He's got great ideas and he's he a hard worker. Gardening is not unlike building a house, or remodeling one. One has to do a little demo at times to make way for new construction, be they walls or planting sites, or decorations for the garden. Taylor is reading Romeo and Juliet.

Miles is on his way home from Thailand this week. He lands here in Seattle Friday morning. Then he gets to discover a new direction in life, that so far as I know, is unknown at this time. His time there was mostly incommunicado as they are rather remote where he is. Since he's volunteering, he had to find a cafe that had pay-as-you-go WIFI to be able to communicate, at least for the first month. Then it was the time difference. He gets on-line when we're asleep. I don't think Miles is reading anything right now, but that's a guess.

Jode is still running the retail shop at Bayview Farm & Garden, as they expand their operation. They will be moving toward more of a beginning to end place, meaning they will be starting their own plants, rather than counting on wholesalers to do that for them. She also house sits a bit, as she is now, and still is re-adjusting our domicile for the return of Miles. Between her own gardens, and work, she's a busy gal. I don't remember what she's reading at the moment. She's like me in that she has a lot of books around her. I usually have two or more going at the same time, and although Jode has a lot of them nearby, I don't think she reads more than one at a time.

I'm still bending nails for now. Or tearing them apart, as of late. A little demo to make way. Still writing, still practicing the drums, and although things seem the same, they are changing more and more....

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Christmas 2010

It was a different Christmas this year. Miles was missing, as he is off in Thailand working on a WWOOF farm. He called yesterday, which made Jody's day I'm sure. It was a short conversation, as he covered a lot in an e-mail from the previous day, but a joy none-the-less to hear his voice.

We had gone down yesterday to see Taylor's new digs on the canal in Sandy Hook. For those of you wondering where that is, I suggest you look up a map of Whidbey Island and look at the south end. otherwise, it's the east side of Cultus Bay. He then returned with us, has been here since. 

Last night we had some excitement about 11:30 when the tree toppled over.  Not quite sure why that happened. the water spilled out of the base, which required some present opening and drying out. We picked it up, and began the de-decorating, and then the re-decorating of the tree, as we had just finished it when it went over. yes, for us it's a bit late in the year to decorate the tree. it used to be up and done on the weekend closest to the 7th, which is Jode's birthday. this year things are a bit , well, off it seems. Not quite in synch. Oh well. The tree is up, and secured so it won't happen again. 

I woke up the note that Jode was up until way-too-late and still wasn't done! So I sat down here, and then did my usual morning routine of cat feeding, coffee, and meditation. Then I cleaned what dishes needed cleaning and set to making Butter Tarts for the morn. I usually make Blueberry Muffins, but decided to try something different his year. The tarts were true to their word: butter. Some added brown sugar and the raisins I think were there to make me think I was eating something "fruity" when all that was used was a 1/2 cup for 11 tarts. I tell you though, brown sugar and butter melted together is way yummy on the tongue, and the tarts tasted delish. Then it was gift opening time!

I talked to my oldest sister in the morning before anyone was awake because her fam lives in Chicago, and the time difference, well, I knew that things would get going back in the midwest. Later in the day we heard from Jode's sister and family from Michigan, as well as the widower of Jode's sister. Some good connections, albeit all to brief as usual. At these times life's impermanence really jumps out as I hear of job changes, medical difficulties, and  other lifestyle changes that are occurring. Kids are getting older, living here and there, our values are changing is what I hear mostly. Maybe the passing of time is bringing those values into relief.  

The turkey is cooking,  and the evening will fade like the winter sunlight does around here, as we likely sit down to a hot beverage and some pages of a gifted book. Christmas 2010 will morph into Sunday December 26, and soon enough we will mark the end of another year in the inaccurate Julian calendar. I hope you all had a merry Christmas, and/or a happy holiday, and my prayer is that your next year is a year of discovering happiness.